The Chief End of Man

My life is so crazy right now. Most days, I wake up much earlier than I would like, work at Starbucks, and then go straight to babysitting. I'm there until dinner time, and it can be so hard to work up the motivation to even make dinner because I am so tired. Thankfully, Joshua has been helping me out a lot. I think he made dinner four times last week. The thing that has been most discouraging to me lately, though, is my lack of focus. Running from here to there, hardly ever being at home, and having very little "me time" has not only taken a toll on my pregnant body, but my soul is thirsting for time alone with Jesus.

Every once and a while, I think about how little time I have before the babies come and how much I want to change about myself before they get here. I want them to know me as a humble servant, a loving wife and mother, and someone who is willing to always put her own needs last. I am so far from that person. The days and weeks and months keep slipping away, and I have yet to even change my attitude toward others, let alone my behavior. I am constantly thinking about how I am being inconvenienced and not about how I can make life easier for others.

Yesterday, my pastor asked us what our purpose was. What is it that makes us get out of bed in the morning? Then, he brought back to my memory some catechism I learned when I was young:

What is the chief end of man? To glorify God and enjoy Him forever.

I never thought of getting up in the morning and thinking, "My chief end, today and for the rest of my life, is to glorify God and enjoy Him forever." If I made that my first goal every day, how would I live differently? What if every day was not about me, but about glorifying and enjoying God? Enjoying Him?

So, my goal for this week is to wake up and think, "My chief end is to glorify God and enjoy Him forever." We'll see what happens.